bleargh-2 within minutes

WHERE is everyone when you need them the most!?

NO! NO ONE will be there!

THAT is reality.
Bites!

Crabbity-babbity!

I want chocolate
or chick-flick
or candle light bubble blowing new year
or a bunch of long stemmed yellow roses
or a nice big warm hug in person now
or some great news to feel elated(new news)
or an orange Popsicle
or a tyre-kuchchi running on streets of Cumbum

I want something NOW!

I'm just so blah with work and isolation!!!!

BLEARGHHH!

Life-1

(words that came out of a chat conversation at 2:30 am with a dear friend!)

"There are no ifs and buts in life"~ Sunil Gavaskar

He used that sentence in a match,during commentary and although I don't remember the match or the date or who was playing against whom, that line stayed with me all through.

It was beautiful and very very true!

What you make out of your life- only YOU are responsible for it. There's no use saying "If only I had used up that opportunity", "If only I had not got myself into that mess".

They wont change things.

YOU decide!

One needs to be a decisive person, else, it's worse than death.

Inactivity eats away happiness like that worm that gnaws through your books. You wouldn't know or see a thing till it leaves behind that deep gashing hole...words eaten up...important words...whole chunks!

Scary!
The story makes no sense anymore!
And the same applies to life...

Music and inner peace

 

There really is nothing I want more than a good song~when I work. A soul is at peace and the mind is working properly when there's great music playing in the ears!

Honestly, no matter what happens in life, I guess as long as I find a song to go with my mood, I should be ok. I know that sounds darned weird and downright dumb, but it is true. When you actually discover someone has a song that's just-right for the moment, it gives you such a fellow-feeling with the writer, that it makes you get excited about it no matter what!

It's like discovering that your roommate also loves to drink tea at midnight and follow it up with a nice conversation for an hour or so! How delightful does that sound!!! :D

So, as I've been doing the trims and the fillets and the mirrors on CAD, music has been playing in the side. I've just begun to try out different kinds of music. The prudishness in the head has been facing a melt-down for the past 5 yrs. And slowly but steadily, I've become a big fan of English movies and a select genre of English music. In the sense, the genre is not your rock, hip hop, jazz kinds.. in fact I don't recognize any genre except Jazz(and I LOVE it!!!). The genre I'm talking about is the kind that comes with some great lyrics and a wonderful tune to go with it, backed by powerful vocals.

Be it off-beat like Baz Leurman's(I hope I got your spelling right, dear fellow crusader!) 'Sunscreen' or the ever-favourite 'Hotel California'(Thanks Varun for telling me about the supposed Satanic verses and getting me curious about this song! :P), nice chick-music like 'Holding Out for a Hero'(Frou Frou version) or good old Animated music (Aaliyah's "Once Upon a December" from Anastasia) to the most wonderful music from the Classics like Audrey singing 'Moonriver' or Nat King Cole going a soulful 'When I fall in love': I am transported!

Some songs, like Moonriver, Vienna(Billy Joel, I worship thee), Rainy Days and Mondays(Carpenters: Karen has the most wonderful voice!) and Only Hope(Mandy Moore) have me listening to them repeatedly!!!

I might STILL have a very restricted knowledge of English music, but I love the ones I listen to.

Thank god for music! It helps me retain my sanity and ah... before I forget, gifts me SUCH a lovely feeling about life, that NO MATTER WHAT HAPPENS, I'm made happy in a jiffy! :)

Good old music.. what would I do without you?

:)

DREAMS

Dreams...

flitting across like flies

hovering over my head.

 

Some-pretty; and let off to pass.

Some fanciful and extravagant,

and stopped with a swat!

 

Insistent

Persistent

Repetitive, some dreams.

That can't be let go or stopped

that are like mosquitoes-omnipresent

gently sucking your blood

while you notice not

and on leaving

a pain sharp and biting, brought.

 

Multi-coloured dreams

fluttering around

wings and stings

beady eyed and black

wispy, fragile and also not!

DREAMS

Dreams...

flitting across like flies

hovering over my head.

 

Some-pretty; and let off to pass.

Some fanciful and extravagant,

and stopped with a swat!

 

Insistent

Persistent

Repetitive, some dreams.

That can't be let go or stopped

that are like mosquitoes-omnipresent

gently sucking your blood

while you notice not

and on leaving

a pain sharp and biting, brought.

 

Multi-coloured dreams

fluttering around

wings and stings

beady eyed and black

wispy, fragile and also not!

SEARCH

I seek

I look

I search the skies

 

Where are the answers

the visions I was promised by and by?

 

Something of a smile vibes with me from above

full of some secret happiness in store

 

I wonder if it is once more imaginations' power play

or the firs of many truths that unfold?

...and when it rains...

The Cloudy skies...

They call out to something

deep within me.

 

What visions that rise...

from the depths of the being;

what visions now belong to me!

 

Eyes searching the firmament

gray, black, inky blue,

promises gift-wrapped in a bundle of colour.

 

As glints of light glimmer from between the folds

and clash with one another

with bellowing war cries

erupting from raging wars,

blue hits gray

black dispels them both.

 

Shiny tears of a wailing war-hating woman

descend to drench us in their sorrow

with plaintive tones for accompaniment.

 

Scary, thrilling, beyond mortal vision,

the world that benevolently hangs above

has tales, hidden, mysteriously unto itself

glimpses of which we snatch when it rains...

VOTING

Today happens to be the the Lok Sabha Elections 2009 Day in Chennai. On a wonderful and as-usual long conversation with friend, philosopher, guide and fellow traveller on the path of life, Varun aka Dodo, these discussions stemmed and both our gray cells got working.

The following are a few sentiments we both jointly express and wish to see being implemented in our beautiful land.

>>> We as citizens should rather than discussing whether to vote or not, get ourselves to educate the rural folk about the workings of democracy and prevent them from getting enticed by free offers and subsidized rates.

As a country, our strength lies in the villages. People there, in most villages, are in an abject state of misery. They fight for basic sustenance and any offers of free goods and low prices are what would help them survive.

In such 'survival of the fittest' situations, an intelligent man's strategic propaganda will make no sense! What they want is their rice and bean and their vote shall go to the very parties that promise these.

What we must do here is to make them understand party politics and get them to see that it is of no long term solution.

One must get down to the so-often-mentioned grassroots and educate the poor to realize and recognize the power they hold and get them to use it wisely.

>>> Instead of complaining that the educated don't vote, find newer means of getting them to vote.

In a fast-paced world where almost all the educated and working people fight for seconds to relax, asking them to vote, in a land where no dramatic good has happened since independence, is near-futile!

Half of our learned folks are abroad and the rest are too caught up with the work-whirl to take time out to vote.

Facilities like SMS voting(free) and Internet voting facilities should be made available to the public.

Like an ATM card has a secret PIN, every Voter's ID no should have an associated secret PIN number, that could allow the access of the person to vote from anywhere authentically.

This shall see a definite and drastic increase in the polling percentage and lead to, hopefully, better governance.

>>> Make certain public services, compulsory for all the contestants.

The contestants of a particular constituency/region, should be made to do public awareness campaigning for a month before the elections. This is to spread general information about elections, politics,etc and NOT about their party.

In this period, the contestant shall be allowed only a restricted number of helpers who can aid him in his work. He needs to make sure he reaches out to every single locality in person and not by proxy. Organized street-wise/locality wise meetings should be organized and door-to-door spreading of awareness should also be executed.

Although this seems like a tough call, one feels that it is of utmost importance for hierarchy and power-play to be destroyed, and a person-to-person contact and humanitarian considerations to be immediately established.

>>> Improve Organizational efficiency and destroy hierarchy

In India, one sees people giving undue importance to power and position rather than ideas and skills. What one must realize that although age, experience and position may make a person better equipped to take decisions, it may not necessarily be so! Also, a person who may not have any kind of power to make that decision can definitely come up with a better solution to a given problem and has to be respected for it.

Governance is for the better functioning of the land. Due to these mismanagement and disorganization issues, we see even the little good that could reach the people, going horribly awry!

 

***

When all of the above are executed, there shall definitely be a visible improvement in the scheme of things and we will actually be able to establish a better rule over the country.

We wonder if ever these shall actually get implemented. But with all the kind of restrictions that the present situation poses in the form of work and education, this is the little way we are trying to reach society immediately.

Do pass on your suggestions, opinions etc on this issue through your comments.

And, DO exercise your vote.

You'd rather have voted than let someone else, misuse your vote to gain their selfish means!

 

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DREAMING... ;)

There are some wonderful reasons I have to dream about. So many things to look forward to that I'm scared. I know this too shall pass- all this bountiful beautiful happiness is, but momentary. Mundane reality shall set in its routine ways very soon.

But at the end of the day, I can't stop myself from letting that little hope-bud from raising its impish head from the very bottom of my soul! :)

I'm trying hard not to hype things for myself, not to build a lovely dream only to just see it remaining so for eternity.

But the ways of the mind are as yet a puzzle to the world and no matter what, it stubbornly entertains itself and refuses to let go of me. The dream seizes me with such a power and a promise of forever happiness that I succumb to it.

Yes, everything is just momentary. I am telling myself that.

But that dream of that wonderful wonderful time ahead... those little bits and pieces I string together to make a patchwork quilt-o'-happiness in my head... oh it's just so beautiful, I wish it would become true!

Here's giving some little sugar and some more spice to that dream and hoping, whatever happens, happens for my best and the best of everyone!

:)

The Dreamy Dryad

PS: I love life, and now, more than ever! :)

*winks

A little scribble on the scroll

"To the Fringed Gentian"

Then whisper, blossom, in thy sleep,
How I may upward climb,
The Alpine Path, so hard, so steep,
That leads to heights sublime.
How I may reach the far-off goal,
Of true and honoured fame.
And write upon its shining scroll,
A woman's humble name"

I have quoted that poem over and again in my blog as I guess, in all that I've read in my life, those few lines have the greatest meaning.

And today, loads of those vision-clouds have been swept away by time and sense and I stand happily, having added the first scribble on the shining scroll of life.

It has been sheer torture living through those days of waiting. But now, a great sense of purpose has emerged.'

I'm happy! :)

And it's such a fierce happiness that I'm not really showing its nature in entirety to the world. Somewhere I like holding things back to myself, these days, rather than grabbing a trumpet and blowing it loud. I'm just making a small audible sound! :D

Life has changed so much over the five wonderful years I've spent in under-grad college here in Chennai. But I'm glad to be letting go of the city and embracing a new one for the next 2-3 years.

God knows what they hold for me. It's the first biggest challenge I'm going to face. It might be a piece of cake or might scare and taunt me. I'm curious to begin.

Life, although has put a small little pause button and is forcing me to finish up all the dirty work here and then fly off.

It's scary, beautiful, dreamy, alluring, independent and simply the most inspiring thing that has happened.

I wonder what lies ahead.

But I just am happy as can be!

Thank you everyone and everything and every power for this. I deeply cherish and appreciate it.

I will not ask for anything more in life, like I said.

:)

Humbly,

ME :)

The Metal that hasn't been named

There is a metal that hasn't been named. It has not even been formed yet. It's basic properties are well-known. But what form, shape, destiny it assumes is still not clear.

For the metal to be named or to be stashed off and categorized as non-metal, it needs to go through a process. That process just got over. And due to reasons best known to the lab and its resident experts, the report isn't out.

Till then the metal sings to itself, in a very Margaret Lawrence-y tone(refer to her poem 'Am I a child or an Adult?' here)

Am I a metal or a non-metal

No, not a metal anymore-my shine is gone!

My crystallized world has melted away

I am amorphous, I understand non-metallic sounds

But does that mean I am a non-metal?

 

(OK OK! I give up. I'm just suffering from a self-declared case of rapid cycling bipolar disorder. May be a temporary phenomena. But well.. depends!)