Sometimes you KNOW you need to blog.. to write something and fill in those really low moments when you seem to be so unsure of everything you do/talk/think! Weirdly, from the morning, many little incidents have been piling up-insignificant in isolation- but together making me feel 'oh-god-WHAT-am-I-doing-in-life?'!!!
So many choices made that are making me confused.
So many choices ebing made that are making me unsure of the next step I take!
So many choices ahead!
Sometimes I wish I KNEW what i'm supposed to do! People accuse you so often-so easily! Some in jest, some so seriously and some-just 'cos they did not have anything better to talk about! And sometimes, although it's not supposed to hurt you NO-MATTER-WHAT, it DOES hurt and your stupid shrinking mind thinks of it all day and ruins your mindframe at the end of the day.
I BADLY feel like taking a few days off from everything and EVERYONE and travel! I can't wait for my next course to begin in 1.5 yrs...
I'm not depressed! I am just feeling that sinking, totally empty, kinda dull aching feeling inside. No one can help. I need to help myself. And when this paralytic benumbing phase seizes you, it's kind of difficult to gather yourself and start your normal work!
Sometimes I wish i knew what life was all about...
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Hi Sandhya,
Time, it draws a thin line between past and the future by defining the 'present'. Just float, sometimes the emptiness gives us a lot of questions; in those questions lies the answers!
Wish I could tell something..but I am too sailing in the same boat. No wonder its called winter of discontent.
That dull ache/emptiness will after sometime turn in hatred and then rage. Life is Crazy.
you know how i am right now! ;) but honestly sandy ..be the optimistic dryad. the sun will raise again, and better still tomorrow will be a bright and warm day!
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