Most of the best moments in your life whiz past, before you could genuinely appreciate them. Stuff don't sink in soon.
My hilltop house overlooking the sea where I let my feet and thoughts wander.
(written listening to Kaise Mujhe from Ghajini. Vaguely tried to capture every single of those myriad emotions that this song seems to tug at within me. I have never before felt like this about any song. really! I have loved many songs. but this is an undefinable something I feel for it. a reverence. a self-imposed slavery...)
how can some words pull at the heartstrings
some voices make those eyes moist?
how can a lilting strain make rush,a memories' gush
how can some things seem as wispy as truth
how can some nothings seem like everything
words...
what power words have. a little genuinity... a voice that has the universal truth in its soul... music that holds a melody that was never heard ever before but you feel like it belongs to just you and always had..
a deep longing
a pain...anguish...heart bleeds and aches and cries out
some fluttering love...feelings you never knew existed!
nameless faces
faceless names
nameless faceless meaningless
and yet...a deep inner meaning for everything.
true love of the most purest undiluted form... unblemished like the first drop of rain. like the baby bud of grass that daringly lifts its head from the bosoms of the earth!
a quivering something inside.
a throbbing feeling.
a quickening of pulse.
a hope...
a bold bold hope that pulsates within you with renewed vigour and at the same time seems defeated and bereft of itself- knowing how it could resurrect and destroy everything. HOPE! cruel beautiful hope!
Olden promises of elden days. Life as it used to be. Simplicity. baby steps. buds that bloom in the morning's steely inky blue! sun and moon smiling benignly at one another.
the first breeze blowing in the wee hours. the stuff that changed your life. Meaning. yes. meaning and truth, over and again.
Genuinity like it never has existed. Beauty as you have never known. An emotion that transforms you into YOU!
Integrity.purity. love.
Some divine vision beheld, transmogrifying into musical notes that lilt and haunt and stay with you. Obsession. some kind of lifeguard to the rescue while free falling!
freedom. the freedom without bondage. conquer.
One song.
just one song.
(dedicated to the victims of the Mumbai terror attack and all others victimized by terrorism in today's world)
I wake up in the morn,
wanting to smell the rain
But instead of the wet mud
I smell blood stains.
I wake up in the morn
wanting to hear the church bells
Suddenly some bombs explode
singing the death knell.
I no more can go to the shops
and ask for my chocolates and gum
Mom is scared and worried
and dad says the terrorists will come.
I hear grandma talk of freedom
how she bravely fought for the cause.
but when I look out of the windows
she screams, all angry and cross!
I seem to have no streets
to run and play and fall!
There is no place to cycle
no place to hide and crawl
I am a little kid of seven
with her book and toys and doll
Why can't I smile in peace
It is my world too, after all!
(dedicated to the victims of the Mumbai terror attack and all others victimized by terrorism in today's world)
I wake up in the morn,
wanting to smell the rain
But instead of the wet mud
I smell blood stains.
I wake up in the morn
wanting to hear the church bells
Suddenly some bombs explode
singing the death knell.
I no more can go to the shops
and ask for my chocolates and gum
Mom is scared and worried
and dad says the terrorists will come.
I hear grandma talk of freedom
how she bravely fought for the cause.
but when I look out of the windows
she screams, all angry and cross!
I seem to have no streets
to run and play and fall!
There is no place to cycle
no place to hide and crawl
I am a little kid of seven
with her book and toys and doll
Why can't I smile in peace
It is my world too, after all!
Rainy days are just so inspiring...it feels like the soul has sprouted wings and is soaring somewhere there... up in the skies... amongst those storm clouds... :)
I have no clue where I get all the positive vibes from. Maybe, like Poorni says, "The cosmos is talking". Or maybe it is somewhere deep within that lies this indefatigable thing called hope, so rooted that nothing seems to nip it off!
I'm just so glad to be alive...
It's a lovely world... :)
1. What have you realized lately?
That my happiness is solely my own and I have never been more happier in life! :)
2. Have you given your first kiss away?
HA HA HA! Nopes!
3. If you were stranded on a desert island, which 11 blog buddies would you take?
Why would I take blog buddies? I'd take a plane! :D
4. Where is the place you want to go the most?
Prince Edward Island :)
5. if you had one dream to come true, what would it be?
Globe-trot. With mom or alone! :)
6. do you believe in seeing the rainbow after the rain?
like DUH!
7. what’re you afraid of losing the most now?
You can't decide what to win or lose. Somethings are always yours. And somethings can never be. I hope I don't lose perspective of this fact in life!
8. if you win one million dollars what would you do?
Globe-trot! :) Buy a car, new house, sponsor a bright poor kid's education for life! :)
9. if you meet someone that you love, would you tell him/her?
I would. I don't mind that one bit. But well, I should be ASSURE that he loves me back before I pop the question!
10. list 3 good things about the person who tagged you.
a.b.c.: I randomly blog hopped. I have no idea about her. I picked the tag as randomly as I visited her blog!
11. what are the requirements that you wish from your other half?
Should love me for what I am. Should resemble Gilbert Blythe in like a million ways! :D
12. what type of people do you hate the most?
people who possess three-fourths of the qualities I despise!
13. what’s the one thing you cant live without?
people :)
14. if you have faults, would you rather that people around you point it out or keep quiet?
Yeah... better out than in!
15. are you a shopaholic?
The Material Maniac is another name I go by! ;P
16. find one word to describe the person who tagged you.
good-writer :)
17. if you had a chance, which part of your character would you change?
Maybe I'd be a little less open about my emotions.
18. what’s the last shocking thing you saw or heard?
Can't remember!
19. would you rather love or money?
love of course!!!! How dare u ask tat question TAG?! X(
There are some photographs that truly stay in your mind out of all the gazillion photos we end up seeing in our lifetime. I have already written about one of my favourite photographers- Padmini.
Here's another helluva photographer and a friend of mine. I simply love his photographs.
Check them out at:
Here's wishing Reuters calls you up soon and New York Times renames Best Seller as the Javits page... Cheers!
;)
Today is such a nice gray day. Not the gray of gloominess but the gray of glad. A kind of lazy happiness has fallen over the world and had it not been for an exam tomorrow, I'd have cuddled up with a nice book in a cozy corner near the window with a steaming hot cup of tea and let my soul wander all over!
But as is wont to happen, I have an exam, I am expected to study one whole chapter in the span of the next ten minutes and my mind and soul are rebelling capture ad seeking to flee!
That moderate pregnant bulge in the gray clouds happily promises at least a drizzle and that dry, yet occasionally chilly blast of wind just pampers it more.
Hopes and dreams seem to take wing once again. Till yesterday all the angel flaps seemed frayed and darned-over a million times- ugly patches of cloth covering the gaping gashes in the wispy wings. But today, somehow, someway, they seem miraculously whole and filmy and as magical as they are meant to be!
It just takes some dreamy faraway storm clouds to wash the soul. Sometimes, even before it rains!
No one is DYING to write but finding no time more than me! :(
Will be back and dream on...
a vague attempt to wait..
patiently
endlessly
for what?
We know not!
I seek
I seek
I seek again
blindly..
without a goal,
without a reason!
Why this perennial search?
Why this painful wait?
And for what, I ask again!
I wish i knew.
I wish I could
get to propel forward.
Gone is the hope
the faith, the trust
The world cruelly snips your wings
and asks you to fly!
Been here, done that!
Life repeats here and there
A recap of yesterday’s events
Rehashed into today with a floss
A long ago’s time
Fills once again,
Today’s pages are sprayed,
With yesterday’s olden sunshine
Words from the past revisit
To flush into the present all of a sudden;
A vague memory awakened…
A forgotten thought yanked…
A new fragrance added to the flower of life…
I’m a leech
Clinging on
To old memories
Broken bangles
Forgotten tangles
Lonely wanderings
Sweet nothings
Sunshiny smiles
Childish wiles
Broken hearts
Their scars and marks
Joyous times
Nonsensical rhymes
Little boats of thoughts
Streams in and out fast
Divine presence
Unknown silence
Lovely gurgling laughter
Lonely desolate after
Holding on to past
As day after day does pass
Can’t let go fast…
Finality of finalities! We had to head to the studios for the grueling last-minute work. Jibi and I went only at 11 after the long arduous work. My partner, seeing my overnight brilliant progress, was more relaxed and FINALLY believed in my capacity to ACTUALLY finish work! :P
The last day, Ashwini and I went into hysterics laughing at random things. Blame it on the pressure or the fact that we ACTUALLY managed so much work. It might have been her overnight understanding of REVIT or my success at the plans. But the final day saw us actually working in unison rather than look at the differences and bicker.
It felt nice to be normal :)
Eddie and Rahul were working too much and trying to scare me. Devendra was doing views after views. Uma was way way way ahead in his work! Saarang and Kasturi had some helluva drafting done. Jibi was in hyperscared state. I was calmly working and having a nice time yapping with Saumya and working at once! :D
We managed our work somehow, submitted it, collected our train refunds and then headed for the celebratory dinner party that they hosted for our benefit. Yummy food after hard work and relaxed atmosphere after frenzy really had an intoxicating effect on me.
I was in great spirits, nicely fed on paneer and gobi manchurian and hothothot paranthas. Two nice round gulab jamuns and some yummy motichoor laddus later, I was in the most relaxed of moods. As the professors began to talk to the students, a few lazy souls, myself included, slithered away to yap. Saumya and I got so bored, we began to walk around idly and also ate some strawberry icecream just to while away time! :D
With permission to watch a movie and with Pankha and Eddie(alongwith Audi and Rahul) fooling me into signing for the projector, we all settled down to watch 'Jaane Tu ya Jaane na'. Sadly, that was project-fooling-us-number-2 and we ended up watching(me-sleeping) through the movie called 'Fool's Gold'. Although the hero was dumb-hot types, I couldn't quite watch it as I was so tired and exhausted in mind and body. I couldn't even get up and go 'cos those mad boys had fooled me into taking responsibility for the projector! HMPH!
So after a nice dozing off and catching bits of screen footage of the dumb-hot looking __________, I returned the projector and went back to the room to hear scary tales of IIT suicides from Jibi. Shit scared from that second, we both refused to go near the toilet without the other standing outside keeping guard from whatever-that-be! :(
Somehow... we slept!
*gulp
The last-but-one day of submission. We were asked to assemble at the Seminar hall for a small lec-dem on Resist software followed by the post-workshop quiz. And then we had to head to the studios.
Our pyramid concept seemed to pose troubles and my partner was going beyond hyper! :P And I was slightly losing my cool but considering how she was not familiar with computer execution of projects, I understood her position and kept calm.
More MP3 wars and food and glasses after glasses of nimbupaani went by and work was going snail pace. :D
I began to make sincere efforts to get to know everyone in the group. I began to pick conversations, get introduced and get chatty much to my poor partner's escalating blood pressure.
Work officially ceased at 12. Jibi and I however burnt oil post-midnight in our hostel rooms and slept a couple of hours. We got up again at 5 and resumed work till 10 am the next morning!
Day 3 was supposed to be a complete intensive studio sessions-with-breaks type. We headed directly to the never-ending drawing studio and the ice-cold computer labs to work.
The lemon juice(made mildly bitter by squeezing it too much), the terrible coffees and worst-ever chais with some yummy biscuits sustained us.
Eddie, Bhasker, Munazza and I took up the round table and bonded like hell. If Nimbupaani made Eddie sweet enough to get me every possible thing to eat at regular intervals, our songs brought a DJ-war between us. This would make Monazza clutch her hair in despair and ask us to shut up and Bhasker would keep a bottle of water in front and urge us to "doob mar"-ofy in the "chunnu-bhar ka paani"! :P And trust me to hear that as "chulha bar paani"! :P
Between Jibi's exasperated Tamil dialogues, Saranya's constant help and Saumya's frequent "I give up"s, we had FUN working! :D
The early-dinner on paneer rolls and dew and real juice and cakes with Nishita, Saranya, Jibi(DUH!), Saumya, Aditi, Rahul and Umadhar turned out to be super fun! Not only did we eat like there's no tomorrow and go berserk talking, we also confirmed plans to go for 'Jaane Tu ya Jaane na' and tour the city!
Work ceased officially at 12. We hit the canteen in the girls hostel for some food and I ended up staying a while with Aditi and Saumya talking. Nidhi, who works in Kanpur and stays at IIT-K, was giving us a list of places to go to. Hit the bed at around 1-ish.
More lecture sessions followed this day- not as great as the first day's, or maybe I was just plain tired and sleepy. I have this tendency to run a temperature or keep dozing off if I haven't had my beauty sleep of a minimum of 6 hrs everyday! :P
Doze I did in the lectures and hence, I'm really not in a position to talk of its contents. Mr.Suresh Ailawadi, a godfather of sorts to all the participants- making sure their stay was comfortable, sending taxis to pick and drop etc- made a rule. A wonderful rule, if I may add. He made it compulsory that we don't sit next to a person from the same state/city and keep shuffling after every lecture.
This way, we got acquainted with people easier and also got introduced to all the people they knew! For the lecture on Day2, I sat next to Aditi from Chandigarh's supposed snoot-sabha! (Boy... I want to hit myself hard for being so wrong in my judgement about them!!! :P ) Aditi turned out to be just the opposite and was a very dear sweet girl. I was introduced to so-thought-super-snob Saumya who turned out to be my soul sister!!! :D
We began bondingbondingbonding. I met Jyoti from Lucknow who turned out to have attended the SAME workshop in X class as I had!!! I got introduced to Umadhar and Saarang too.
Saarang was this fellow I instantly became friends with. I mean, he was one of those people you see and you KNOW you're gonna be great friends with!!! :) hehe. I told him that too! :P Trust me to do that. And we realised that he was a Saggitarian and I was an Arien- and BINGO, they are supposed to be the best of friends according to Linda Goodman!!! :D
Point to be noted here: I had not yet been acquainted with Himanshu, Hemant or Vishwanath and I thought Rahul was either too introverted and quiet or a super snoot! :P Ditto thoughts about 'Eddie' Aditya and Umadhar(although we DID speak).
We had some intense studio sessions where we were supposed to be working. My partner was a hyper-tensed super-scared female and I am this procrastination-is-my-middle-name type when it comes to architectural design! :P So you can imagine how many arguments, near-tears fights and fissures we had. But valiantly, both of us stood by one another, made some adjustments and flexibly finished our designs. It took both of us immense strength and a lot of letting-go-of-egos to get the work done and I'm mighty proud of her and me! :) Best part- we did multiple designs!!! And we both worked on both!!! :D
Studios, food and tea sessions brought Saumya, Aditi and our previously formed gang of Audi, Pankha(dear Pankaj who's this bro-come-buddy to me!), Nishita, Saranya, Jibi and I, together. A visit to a boring structures lab revealed Aditi's prowess of the Tamil language and my god, we had a roaring laugh over her expletives!!! :D
A city tour followed, where I met the rest of the junta who were to be a part of our gang- Rahul, Himanshu, Hemant and Vishwanath. And again, I ate my words about the CCA group! :P Rahul just takes time to open up with people! He ain't a snoot! LOL! To think I thought SAUMYA was one!!! GOD!!! :D
The city tour was restricted to two things- the JK Birla Mandir and the Naveen Market. The rain further restricted the city tour's extent. We were drenched to the skin and yet had a jolly good time! :)
At the end of Day 2, we were all acquainted. And I was discovering what delightful people the others were too! :)
DAY 1
Reach we did for the stipulated 8:30 am seminar, but at the wrong seminar hall! After some searching, calling and exercising my thoota-phoota Hindi speaking skills(sans Tamil accent! Ha! I'm proud of the fact that everyone I have spoken to so far, has told me "tumhari hindi sahi hain. Aur tamil accent bhi nahin!!!" Arrey waah! ;D ), we found the right place.
After registration and inauguration and a few mutual exchanges, we set off for the ever-necessary 'group photograph'. At that time I was like, "God knows how many of these people I'm ever gonna remember. But yeah...whatever! I'll pose!".
Well, for once I was mistaken and GLAD I was! :D
Enter seminar hall after the photo shoot, and we have a monstrous quiz which I had no clue about(once more I was mistaken. I scored a decent 14 on 25! :P). The sessions soon started and we had interesting lecture hours with earthquakes, structural behaviour during quakes, techniques to prevent collapse etc. Then the dreaded design problem was introduced. We were to design a multi-storey residential complex with around 160-190 houses in the span of 2.5 days!!!
And for this we were divided into pairs to work. Nishita(the cake-holding Guwahati girl from the previous night's convo near the room-without-the-fan) sweetly asked me to be her partner. But then there began this whole big issue as to 'partners kaise choose karein'. Deciding on lots, I finally ended with Ashwini from AOA,Mumbai a III yr student.
This whole partner-separating session stemmed off some issues, which I was asked to resolve, as Nishita found me the 'most reasonable person of the lot'. From then began a time where responsibility began to be thrust upon me and people began to think I was some self-appointed leader and hated my guts! :P
In the process of resolving Nishita's group mates' issue, we became acquainted with fellow-tamil speaking Saranya from Chennai and the entire Guwahati College junta. We also got to speak to this super-snooty-cum-i'm-too-intelligent-to-be-talking-to-you-looking peeps from Chandigarh.
We somehow resolved the issue and ended up going for Adithya(Audi's) birthday treat at the restaurant near the IIT Supermarket. Some yummy paranthas and panner guzzled down with fanta-later, we realised this was the very same brat-pack that refused us answers the previous night in their Audi-budday-celebrations!
Chuckling, we bonded over the bitchings and food and took some crazy snaps(on the road, at the traffic police-ka-stand, with random kids who thought we were victims of some hit-and-run on campus etc) and established a wonderful friendship! :)
A movie on the Mexico quake followed where AGAIN I happened to walk in late and hence was entrusted with operating the projector!!! Some more 'god this girl is so exasperating' looks were passed. I am so used to people hating me in the beginning, that I ignored those looks! :P
Day one ended with people knowing who Sandhya was and hating her for her supposed 'self-made leader' attitude! :(
(written a week ago)
It was a great surprise when my lecturer called me and asked me if I was interested in applying for a "Workshop for Earthquake Resistant Design Practices" to be held at IIT-Kanpur. I was pretty excited! For one, it was going to clearly be the first Architecture stuff I was going to participate in. Even in the NASAs and ZONASAs, all I did was take part in the culturals, writing or such on-stage events. But nothing architecture except for the trophy works.
Secondly, this was an individual participation thing- which was thrilling and confidence-boosting. I could learn something and get more direction as to what to do for my thesis.
With all the above in mind, I sent a filled-in form. And surprises of surprises, I DID get selected. So now, I am in Kanpur, with my friend and class mate Jibi and we are having a nice time...
Well, I should have added 'now' when calling it a nice time. It didn't quite start that way. We had a really horrible train journey which got extended by 3 hours for 3 reasons- a)we ran over a buffalo(R.I.P. Buffalo), 2) the engine burnt off and 3)a rock got stuck beneath the train and had to be removed by chiseling on it.
To top it all, we realized that the womenfolk of the nation have no option but to forever carry a pack of sanitary napkins every once they take a train! Not one convenience store in any of the stations that we got down at. Exasperation and anger reached new heights. It must be made imperative for every train to have a sanitary napkin dispenser or a convenience store should be present in every platform!
And finally, when we DID reach Kanpur, it was only at 11:30 pm. One must remember that this city sleeps off by 11. With rumours about Kanpur being the i-shall-carry-guns-around-and-may-shoot-you-down-anytime blinking at the back of the mind, we desperately searched around for the cab that was sent to pick us up. Many cabwallahs creepily and uncannily came and asked us- "IIT Kanpur jaana hain?" Evading all those omniscient cabwallahs, we finally found the one meant to pick us up and discovered a 'SandhIya(yes with that obnoxious I) and a 'ZIVI'(instead of a Jibi) placard in his hand.
The drive to IIT was scary- deserted roads, very few people loafing around and some creepiness lurking in the air. Our Brijesh Bhai(cabwallah) was a very naive fellow. We reached Kanpur at 12:00 precisely and were very sweetly dropped in Guest House-1(GH-1) instead of Girls Hostel-1(also the same damned GH-1) and so had to lug our baggage(that definitely weighs twice as much as I do) all the way back on the clean deserted streets of the IIT-campus. But that is NOT why he's naive. He was very innocently asking me if Kolkatta was near Chennai!!! No wonder foreigners used to refer to India as 'land of snake-charmers and elephants and diseases'. Our own people are so much in the dark!
Somehow we reached the destined GH-1 at around 12:15 to see three girls and two guys jumping near the entrance and ignoring our "excuse me...is this the girls' hostel". After a nice mental cursing, we signed in. But well, doom it is that befalls the doomed! Like, DUH!
Enter Sandhya and Jibi into the room and we notice we get no beds, no pillows and well... no fan!!! After almost 2 whole days/40 hours of sweating it out in a filthydirtyirritatingslowdarned train, we lost it! We JUST lost it. We demanded a nice room with fan and get we did. Just that we still haven't got the beds and blankets. But 'looking at the condition of the one mattress we did get, we decided against asking for another! :P
We met some people with a yummy licked-off-all-the-cream-proclaiming box of chocolate cake from Guwahati. We didn't realise THEN that we were to see a lot of them in the coming days and they were the same brats who did not answer our questions of "...is this the girls' hostel?"
After a nice long shower and some frantic calls, we left to grab some grub at the canteen in the hostel that is open till 2 am. A yummy paneer parantha and a bottle of Tropicana Twister(I have literally been drunk on it all the while! So much so that the aunty who runs the canteen takes out a bottle when she sees me!)We hit the bed at 2 am, only to be reminded by our organiser that we need to assemble at 8:30 am the next day!!!
As I snugly sat in my sofa watching a nice Bengali movie called 'Mahanagar'(a Satyajit ray classic) and while my mother was dilligently cutting up some spinach for the oncoming dinner of dal and jeera rice, the earth shook!!!
As I live near the railway station, our initial reaction was a very calm- "is it a goods train?" My sister sitting in the same room barely felt a thing!!! By the time we realised that it, indeed and unfortunately so, a quake, the jitters began!!!
I have this weird giddiness after every quake. I don't know if it is a physical reaction to the quake or a mental state that translates to a state of light-headedness! But I've been a little dizzy ever since!
Just two calls came in after the quake. Half the people didn't feel it and don't know of it yet! The news channels haven't started their, "Chennaiyil bhoogambam; makal padatram" rounds yet!
although extremely jittery, my mom continued to cut the spinach and I resumed watching Mahanagar. Four quakes and a tsunami later, we are well aware of the futility of life, I guess. And also, we were hoping that our building experiences a million tremors a day(due to the trains) that one more wouldn't quite damage it.
I AM scared. But well, one can only hope it was a minor earthquake and nothing happened to life and property anywhere in the world!
God bless the world.
(P.S.: It does seem uncanny that this quake happens just after Dasavatharam talks of tsunamis! Sheesh! Why can't Kamal Hassan make movies about global harmony and universal peace?! *rolls eyes*)
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UPDATE: Quake hits Andaman Islands. Recorded 6.7 in the Richter scale. Tremors were felt in Nungambakkam and Koyambedu area and many other parts of Chennai!
SHEEEESH!!!
...I find a million dreams
...a little firefly
...a gentle lilting breeze
...a never ending song
...a thousand feet dancing
Looking within...
I find...
maybe there is a meaning in being after all....
Words seem to fail me when it comes to how much this bunch means to me! Every once I meet them, they reinforce my faith in life. The elusive happiness that we are all searching for-these people help me see it!
I don’t know if it was God’s way of telling me he cares for me or if it was just good ol’ Dame Luck- I knew them through unexpected means and am I glad!!!
One of the best bunch of friends I have, one of the most reliable and funniest lot too! When I do whacky things, they won’t laugh- because they too will want to do the same! Be it watching Gabtun movies together, making mad gifts, talking Rahman 24X7, playing Harry Potter quizzes at Barista, breaking guitar strings :P, fighting on who’s got the best/worst handwriting- innocent, perverted, normal, abnormal and weird- together, we just live life like it should be!
Known as the official thanks giver of the group, I really want to thank that ‘whatever’ that has brought this beautiful friendship about. They are my cushions- whenever life fails to make me feel happy, it just takes a moment of meeting them to set things right! :)
I work for storytrails as a storyteller. I've not yet begun work, as such as I'm still getting trained. I have also begun contributing to the storytrails blog. Do check it out and leave your comments there:
http://storytrails.blogspot.com/2008/06/down-lanes-of-past-thinnais.html
:)
I blinked my eyes quick, asking my human camera to capture the breathtaking view! God clicked from above too! And then, roared with loud laughter!
Hills- bathed in twilight. Light! Misty views. A crack of lightening. Thunder. Copse of trees. The valleys below looking like million glittering gems were strewn! A heavenly scent- a mix of trees, wet earth, rain, dried leaves, slush. Overcast skies. A world bathed in blue. Hairpin bends. The valley alternating with buttresses holding back the excited hill soil. Contoured face of the hills further hand-moulded to make way for vehicles.
Threatening bundles of clouds-sagging with the water within- resembling pregnant women with their bulge; looking menacingly at the earth in one of her mood swings!
Ah… the hills are an alluring constantly enticing lot!
It looked like a setting of some horror movie- an estate house- with its clichéd asphalt stone masonry and curtained windows; a lonely guy sitting on the doorstep; the hill steeply climbing up. And as you opened your mouth wide to exclaim on what a lovely setting it made, lightening cleaved the sky and thunder bellowed like an evil laughter. Were they celebrating Halloween up there in the heavens?!
Pitch darkness. Hilltop. Seven human beings standing. Looks like no others exist in the world save us! An ethereal feeling. The heavens huddle together for a good cry. A streak of lightening. The Chinese entrance to the Pagoda Point gets illuminated. Suddenly it feels as bright as day. Brilliant luminous with a shine at the edges. We look down at the valley. Once more it looks like God has opened his bag of gems very clumsily and spilt and scattered its contents- necklaces of diamonds, rubies, amethysts lay lined below!
Once more lightening strikes. We are urged to take a walk till the tip. But the fear multiplies like the lightening! We are on top of the hill and surrounded by trees- two things not too encouraging for us to risk it. Moreover, wild bisons were supposed to be on the prowl in the vicinity and known to chase and attack in the night. And it was 9 in the night but looking like
But oh, we were almost near the tip of the hill and the whole world lay strewn- in its myriad colours at my feet!
Being on top of the world literally DOES make you feel near heaven- giving you an out-of-the-world experience!
Man’s power- to have shaped nature according to his whim- created a settlement on top of a hill- breaking mountains, rolling off stones, holding back the rest of the hill from sliding down in jury; oh- such a proud yet humbling feeling!
And at that moment- at the top of the hill- somehow my life seemed to have clinched a new ‘height’, fulfilled an old wish, attained more meaning and somehow- a better person seemed to have emerged…
Ten Things You Wish You Could Say To People Right Now (names withheld) :
1) You don't know how much you mean to me! You're the one person who means the most to me in this world. I'd do anything for you.Yeah, it IS tough to believe when I don't even do the little things you ask me to! :P Sometimes I think, maybe I'm NOT the kind of person you wanted. Sometimes I could see pride in your eyes when you look at me. I wish I KNEW what you think of me. No matter who goes away from my life, I can manage. But without you, I'd be nothing! I've been cruel, horrible, lazy, mean, stubborn and more to you. But I still LOVE you! :)Eight Ways To Win Your Heart
1) Have a great conversation with me! I'll be floored!
2) Do something JUST for me- cook, write a letter, think of me and message, call me saying 'i felt like talking to you', something, anything! :) the fact that i mean something to you makes my day! :)
3) Chocolates! :D ferrero rocher, dairy milk, crackle especially! :D
4) Ask me to entertain you when you are bored(straight out of Nithya's :P)
5) take me on a long walk or insist I spend time with you! :)
6) smile at me wholeheartedly! :)
7) Be candid to me. Be yourself. I loathe artificiality. (Nithya's again!:P)
8) Let's both do something crazy- write shitty poems, war dance in the terrace, invent a new language, etc! :P
Seven Things That Cross Your Mind A Lot
1) Why do i confuse myself so much?
2) Am i doing right?
3) Was I destined to do this ?
4) Why do I have trouble in accepting things ?
5) Why do I get emotionally attached ? Why do I entertain false hopes ?
6) Are people taking me for granted? Do they genuinely care for me? Am i being a little-too-nice to everyone?
7) Am I asking for too much out of life?
Six Things You Wish You Never Did
1) Some words, meant well, but that caused someone to forget the lovely friendship we had shared till then. I've tried a million times to patch it up. But somehow, thigs have changed and it still hurts that I lost one of the most true friends I had and treasured! I wish things would change back to normal... but i know it might not happen!
2) I trusted people. And they were untrustworthy!
3) I wish I had never stopped my swimming and keyboard classes! I wish I had learnt dance professionally
4)I wish I never grew up! :(
5) I wish people would understand that I don't OVER-REACT, but that's just MY WAY of reacting!
6) I wish I could rewrite a few chapters of my life... undo a lot of things, change a few and make myself more happy!
Five Turn-Off’s
1) ArtificialityFour Turn-On’s
1) A nice start to the day... like a slight drizzle, some friend's message/call, chilly breeze, purple dawns, nice dreams, birthday mornings when amma wakes me up saying 'Happy birthday'! :) , Vishu mornings when I close my eye, stumble across and look at gold! :DThree Things You Want To Do Before You Die
Too many things! :) globe-trot, publish a book, be called a good human being to name just three!
Two Smileys that Describe You
:O
One Confession
I do feel lonely at times, and feel unimportant, useless and a huge failure in a few particular ways!
I tag- whoever wants to take it up! :P