A few notches up the Alpine Path :)

To the Fringed Gentian

"Then whisper, blossom, in thy sleep,
How I may upward climb,
The Alpine Path, so hard, so steep,
That leads to heights sublime.
How I may reach the far-off goal,
Of true and honoured fame.
And write upon its shining scroll,
A woman's humble name"
~featured in L.M.Montgomery's "The Alpine Path"

There are dreams you dream persistently... no matter how many setbacks you receive!
:)

There have been times when i've been so low on confidence with my writing, suffered a million tortures with a few cutting remarks from a few people of merit!

One English teacher in my college on reading my poem told me, "your words are too old-fashioned! They don't appeal to the modern people...they WON'T! Make it more realsitic, more true...don't bring in fantasy and imagination".

She's right.. i'm too old-fashioned! But I still believe in the lovely old-world charms, simpler lives etc! I DO lead a simple sweet life where trifles matter so much! I DO have time to stop and stare atleast for a second! :)
And guess THAT reflects in my writing!

But somehow, the way she put it hurt me heaps and I had to fight back tears! I did attempt at a little less fantasy from then on and I DID see a world of difference! More people began to be able to associate with my words! I thank her her... Mrs.Usha... Your casual comment has helped! :) Thank you!

And today, still nourishing my dreams of someday publishing a book and reaching across to people with it, touching their souls and making them feel better about life itself after reading me, I can proudly declare that I've climbed a few notches up my Alpine Path today!

reason:
http://thedreamydryad.sulekha.com/blog/post/2007/04/chennai-chitthiram.htm

This post has been selected by Sulekha and got published in The Deccan Chronicle-Chennai Chronicle pg.19 today! :) They even carried a short intro for me! :) Man... it feels happy!

And the happiness is not the mad yelling happy bouts that I get into...but the silent sweet deep happiness that makes you hug yourself hard within but just show a smile on the outside!!!

:)

Ah! It's a big big boulder-sized Brick that's been laid into my foundation!
I'm glad...

I hope I continue to get these li'l boosts on my long arduous struggle to the top! I've taken many wrong turn, wasted much time... but now... I need to propel ahead without looking back and getting discouraged!

Time will tell me if these dreams will find their day!

Till then, as always, I keep,

Dreaming on....

:)

Thank you all for your sustained support and encouragement for whatever 'trish-trash' I write! You motivate me! :) God bless! :)

A LITTLE...

A little more of sunshine
A little more of smiles
A little less of tears

A little more of truth
A little more of light
A little more simplicity

A nicer brighter dawn
Let a sweeter world, it be, if it can
Lots more laughter,
Lots more cheer
A little less of strife
in this lifegoo
Is all I ask you
Oh God, grant this prayer!


Listening to: Vellai Pookal ~Kannathil Muthamittal; A.R.Rahman

PARANOIA

Some words seem to haunt me sometimes... echoing on my ears time and again...They ensnare me and irk me to no end to use them repeatedly in conversations, essyas and poetries!

I fall in love with words. One word at a time and with such a firce obsession do I love them that I almost sort of give it a well-chiselled handsome face and kiss it passionately! :D

It was 'wicked' first! It waS oh-so-a..well... WICKED word! SO full of all the unspeakable evils entrapped in its very cores of hearts! A word full of all the daring, all the courage, all the romance that I liked, forming its letters!

Then, still disillusioned by wicked, I fell in love with the world 'depth'! It was as if someone had bored a hole throughthe entire radius of the earth and found the golden molten core of it! DEPTH!!! Yeah... I wanted a 'depth' in everything- people, their actions, books, music-everything!

'Eons' replaced depth! Every poem of mine had an 'eons' in it! The sword of old battles had been used 'eons' ago. 'Eons' had passed since that lovely time of life. It was such an archaicvictorianish word! It refloected my personality- very old-fashioned in its 'dEpths' but slightly 'wicked' on its surface! ;)

And now... if your're wondering what particular word posseses me...Well...you just have proof of my obsession! I wrote an entire essay with it for a title!

:D

Words I love- enraptured, forecastle, tread, meandering, floss, blush, jamboree, ramble, prowl, scented, fragrance, twilight, betwixt, bewitched, dryad ;), nereid, nymph, druid, faeryland, wayside, burrow, recluse, mellifluous, crystal, icy, sunshine,smile, wanderlust, sentinel, wee sma's, wither, whither, zephyr, zest, trample, galavanting, chrysanthemum, brownie, ecstatic, eclectic...... oh...... I could go on!!! :D :D :D

Daddy Long-legs!!!

There's nothig in the world so whole-heartedly delightful as a book! It completely washes your soul, repaints it with sunshine and lets all those dreams blossom again! :)

Daddy Long-legs did that to me! :D

"Daddy Long-legs" is a book by Jean Webster and oh... what a book it is!!! :D I'm DELIGHTED by it! It warmed the very cockles of my heart like very few books do! :)

My flitting depression got a blow from this book and the blow was so strong that it's been in the hiding for a while now! ;) And well.. let it just remain there! :P

Very few books bring in the sunshine back into my life! The best of 'em all are the "Anne books" by L.M.Montgomery! :) If you happen to be a friend of mine, you'd have heard me gush about the book and talk about it like a special friend or family! L.M.M. has it that no one else does! :) A waywith words... a something that doesn't speak to my head but to my very soul! :) Every/Any book of hers can cure me out of depression,self-doubt and the like!

Other books which can also have such an uplifting influence in me include books like "The little princess", "Rebecca of Sunnybrook farm", "Polyanna", "Little Lord Fauntleroy", Enid Blyton's "Malory Towers""St.Clare's" and "Riddle of the Boy Next door" and now... "Daddy long Legs" :D

All these are absolutely 'huggable' books whose souls resemble warm cushiony squishy arm-chairs!!!

My writer's itch resurfaces on a tryst with them and my diary finds pages after pages being urgently filled with my 'trish-trash'! :D Infact, Daddy long Legs made me write 25 whole pages at a stretch!! :D and this included the 'prologue' and 'epiogue' of a story that's been mulling in my mind! :)

Oh... it fueels nice to have been so renewed by books! :D Can't wait for Harry Potter to come! :) I pre-oredered it! :D :D :D

Books give me what people can't- loyal uplifting presence! And I'm glad I can always turn my face away from irregular, unreasonable stuck-up people/world and drown myself in the world of books and have an absolutely wizard time! :)

Yayyyyy!!! I'm glad for the written world!!! :D

Daddy Long-legs!!!

There's nothig in the world so whole-heartedly delightful as a book! It completely washes your soul, repaints it with sunshine and lets all those dreams blossom again! :)

Daddy Long-legs did that to me! :D

"Daddy Long-legs" is a book by Jean Webster and oh... what a book it is!!! :D I'm DELIGHTED by it! It warmed the very cockles of my heart like very few books do! :)

My flitting depression got a blow from this book and the blow was so strong that it's been in the hiding for a while now! ;) And well.. let it just remain there! :P

Very few books bring in the sunshine back into my life! The best of 'em all are the "Anne books" by L.M.Montgomery! :) If you happen to be a friend of mine, you'd have heard me gush about the book and talk about it like a special friend or family! L.M.M. has it that no one else does! :) A waywith words... a something that doesn't speak to my head but to my very soul! :) Every/Any book of hers can cure me out of depression,self-doubt and the like!

Other books which can also have such an uplifting influence in me include books like "The little princess", "Rebecca of Sunnybrook farm", "Polyanna", "Little Lord Fauntleroy", Enid Blyton's "Malory Towers""St.Clare's" and "Riddle of the Boy Next door" and now... "Daddy long Legs" :D

All these are absolutely 'huggable' books whose souls resemble warm cushiony squishy arm-chairs!!!

My writer's itch resurfaces on a tryst with them and my diary finds pages after pages being urgently filled with my 'trish-trash'! :D Infact, Daddy long Legs made me write 25 whole pages at a stretch!! :D and this included the 'prologue' and 'epiogue' of a story that's been mulling in my mind! :)

Oh... it fueels nice to have been so renewed by books! :D Can't wait for Harry Potter to come! :) I pre-oredered it! :D :D :D

Books give me what people can't- loyal uplifting presence! And I'm glad I can always turn my face away from irregular, unreasonable stuck-up people/world and drown myself in the world of books and have an absolutely wizard time! :)

Yayyyyy!!! I'm glad for the written world!!! :D

Whither?

Whither has gone my sunshine?
Whither have gone my dreams?
All the rosy-reds have turned white!
The brilliant ocean's now a stream!

Something's forever killed within,
I know not what it is!
A zing, a tang, an essence,a something
in life do I miss!

My rainbows have gone
and so have the leprechauns!
My crocheted fancies too
now lay withered and torn!

Bring me back my glorious days
Give me back my smiles
I know not how far I need to walk
How many more miles?

BACK TO THE THRONE

Before all of you decide that I'd killed myself on my 20th birthday, here I come back to inform you that.. NO... I didn't! :D

I decided to go the Milind Soman way and declared to the world(read family and friends) that "age is just a number and in my heart I always shall remain 12!" :D

Which is true.. I mean..my staying 12 forever! I totally dislike mental aging! HOW can you let yourself feel old?!
Whatever be the state of this world, I don'tgivea damn anymore! :P It's just what I think, I feel and I act! :D And here goes to my upcoming teenage that never shall come(I mean... if I'm ALWAYS going to be 12, I can ALWAYS look forward to my teens...but I'll never quite experience teenage... ok! I'm crapping!).. CHEERS!

I just came back from a nice 5 day trip to Coimbatore. Had good fun. Wrote a bit, read a bit, oor suthifyed a bit, baked an awesome cake wid my mami and sis, saw "Lee"(a good movie worth watching atleast once. A very realistic theme which has been neatly done!) and played with my kiddo cousins! :D

But nothing feels as nice as coming back home. I was scared shit in the Upper berth. I HATE DETEST LOATHE Upper berths! I made a hullabaloo climbing onto the berth! X( And..I DID NOT sleep well! :(

The second I entered home....ah...I can't word that inexplicable warmth that washed over me! :) It was beautiful to connect once more with my sphere of happiness and sorrow...to be back in the place where I dream,live,breathe,cry! :) I LOVE Chennai and I LOVE my house! :) It feels justGREAT to be back! :) And EVERY second there in Coimbatore, I longed for my house!!! :)
I mean, I do travel a lot,these days! One or the other college trip or competition or family trip takes me away from home often! (I prefer travelling alone butI've NEVER done that! :( ) And I DO miss home all the time! But this time... it was stronger than ever! I guess it's because I've changed a lot over the past few months and find it more comfortable in my zone rather than getting displaced,evern for a while!

Life's becoming very insipid! I'm happiest these days when I'm listening to music or reading a book or walking alone! Guess extroverted me's turning an introvert! :P Secrets seem sweeter, silence more calming! he he... Some VAGUE phase I'm going through! I KNOW it'll all get washed off and turn into beautiful clarity after this semester! :) I'm WAITING for my training! and... for a few holidays where I can just not think of anything and do as I please! I wanna learn to drive, write more, kill the computer(I hate it...though I spend so much time on it and also take more care of it than myself! It ruins me!), bury my mobile(Urgh! I hate being connected...but unable to get disconnected! :( ) and read read read!!! :D

God's great cos he created music and the written word! They are my balm during stress and distress! I maybe very irregular and out-of-touch with my writing on my blog... all i can say is...kindly bear with me for a month and a half more! Things will become rosy and wonderful again!

Or so hopes 12! :)