HIDING

Hiding in my world of make-believe
a one-eyed lens view
zooming as I please on the good parts
letting the rest blur out and stay
manual focus here and there.
It is a comfort,
this delusion of a camera;
a sort of selective memory freeze
while giving the others a pass.
And once in a while the battery dies out;
and reality, my cruel master
shows the ugly whole;
while I stand shivering
shuddering and alone
bidding my time
once again
to beat my retreat!